I've been a member here over a year but until recently have not been posting much. I think its time to reintroduce myself and get more active. I go by loriisfree but some of you here know who I am. One very special person knows my entire story and....before I even heard about WWP, in Sept 2009 my story was cross posted here from ESMB where I go by Lori. I've copied it and will paste it below. Rereading it I'm shocked that what I predicted way back then was dead on. I was still decompressing from my escape out of hell and still terrified of the step I took to walk away. You guys Rocked then and you rock now! So......here is my cross posted story from 2009. The present story is still unfolding and one day shall be read about in a much awaited upcoming book. "8th September 2009, 01:04 AM #83 Lori I have been lurking in the background, reading posts, PMing to a few,and trying to get up the nerve to "escape" from what I now refer as The Cult of Scientology for the last several months. Two weeks ago I finally made the cut. It was the hardest thing I ever did in my life, leaving behind someone I love with my whole heart but I had to for ME. I was slowly dying inside but stubborn enough to fight. It is amazing now that I am out, and clearer headed, that the very thing they tried to suppress and invalidate in me, (my self determinism) was the very thing that gave me the final strength to walk away from scientology (i will not dignify it with capital letters). I was labeled as having a "problem with authority" Before tonight I did not have the nerve to write too much publicly preferring to only PMing those I trusted like Tory, whom I credit and thank from the bottom of my heart with giving me the strength and encouragement I needed to finally make that final step. After so many years both as public and staff, and hundreds of thousands of dollars thrown down the toilet, I am now publicly announcing that I am out and if they think they can bully me then they ain't really met me yet on my own turf. And, here is what i do when they call and leave me a message, or text me to "come in and route off properly....lalalalalalala! This is to those brave (and sometimes weird) souls that are out almost every weekend and some week days in front of the Orgs. Keep it up. It may not seem like it but you are being heard. The infrastructure is collapsing, courseroom attendance is plummeting, and the Orgs are desperately trying to get in "fresh meat" pushing staff members harder and harder to get people in. The public scientologists are getting fed up with being regged every weekend and a large majority will not answer their phones. Panic is setting in and it is only a matter of time before more and more turn their backs and close their pocketbooks. As the pressure to go Ideal increases so does the desperation for staff members, that is one reason the Missions and City Offices are closing. They are being absorbed by the Orgs they are attached to, in order to fill the staff quotas! This I know for a fact. So, I predict as the CofS plummets down that dwindling spiral they have created we will be hearing from more and more people on this forum. I am honored to be a member and now know for a certainty that I Am Not Alone any longer. Lori Goethe: "None are so hopelessly enslaved as those who falsely believe they are free." Jean-Paul Sartre: "Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you."